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This puzzled look you stare to me says "you put me back together..." Just wait and you'll see you're everything I want. Don't take this from me now.

MISSION: Today will be non-stop action. If i must sit down it will be only to eat or dispose. From hoops to hoes I will go. Resting is not an option. *Failure to complete this mission... The first person to leave a tag will decide my fate.*

So... it is apparently that time again where I sit back and let my fingers express..aww f* it.

Summer of boredom is what this is. I wake at 8 in the evening because its too hot to be outside, but whos complaining... because walking never really took us anywhere, we ran a few laps till our legs showed wear and tear. Although you didn't think that i would understand, you looked at me and said to always hold your hand. It was never how fast or slow that was the problem, it was our climb for change that brought us to the bottom. Satisfaction was something we thought to be true, we searched for months but satisfaction was not in you. However the saddest fraction was the time we spent together, a quarter past confusion was when you turned fairweather. Will it ever be enough for you to stay, you turned around but there was nothing left to say... you dropped me without warning, but I'll be ok.

Sunday! SUNDAY! Sunday! Here i am at 3:30 am on this old dark and dead morning, listening to James Horner and Danny Elfman, they just get you in that mood ya know... In the mood to aimlessly sulk around and around in the slums of downtown Nevada till you finally collapse and two children drag you to where you awake and see Edward Scissor Hands himself sculpting your face out of a tiny ice cube from which he took from the glass of vodka they said you'd been sipping since they first noticed your hands rocking the casbah. Because it was a long time ago, longer now than it seems. In a place that perhaps, you've seen in your dreams. For the story that you are about to be told, took place in the holiday worlds of old. Now, you've probably wondered where holidays come from. If you haven't, I'd say it's time you begun. For the holidays are the result of much fuss and hard work for the worlds that create them for us. Well, you see now quite simply thats all thay they do. Making one unique holiday especially for you. But once a calamity ever so great occured when two holidays met by mistake.

Happy Independence Day! So... what to do, well I guess I'll go see Yellowcard, the best band ever, and Over It, also good. So I never got the job anywhere. It sucks, so if anyone can help me out I'd love you. Maybe I'll add more content to this site...

Well maybe later its the 4th of July I'm outta here. I leave you with this

Well.. News: Bought new cymbals. ZXT Rock set, I emailed Kim from the Huntridge about getting gigs and she says she'll let me know when something comes up. I talked to a friend who works at Hollister and she said she would try and hook me up with a job, my interview is tomorrow, drove around town yesterday to different venues and dropped of our demo cd, we have a show on August 22 at the Java Joint with some other bands that will soon be announced. My parents leave town today, and my grandparents get in tomorrow. Alone for a day.

Ahh... It's finally over. I have graduated, I made it after all. I felt like such a goon up there with my white gown and dumb 'ol cap, but what can ya do? After the ceremony I went and had lunch with my family and got $50 from my dads work, $50 from my grandparents, and $650 from my parents. It was a good lunch. The food was great as well, teryiaki sliced sirloin. mmm. Then I hung out with Natalie till about 10:00 it was a good time had by all. I love her. After she left, I met up with some old friends and was supposed to meet up with some other friends but they were no where to be found. So I called a friend from GV and went over to this girls house where i made $10 playing the billiards, but then lost $5. But hey, I came out ahead. Made some new friends.. Five bucks.. it was cool. Then we got kicked out, and I went to Robertos. That was interesting. After that it was just driving around waiting for something to do and doing nothing at all. came home.

I'm just not the blogger I used to be. Anyways news: Life is different, I'm experiencing new things, new well.. not really new people, but maybe. I registered for three classes yesterday, don't really know how many to go. I went to the lake last Friday and got baked for about 6 or 7 hours, I tried wakeboarding but I couldn't get up for the life of me. It was a fun day. Then Saturday night I went to the House of A Thousand Beers, thanks to Mikal. Although I did not have a sip of anything that night. Then Sunday, more graduation partys, more sitting and eating and doing nothing, but it was cool because it was someting to do. I tried rating the three grad partys that I did attend, but I have forgotten the scores. Now Monday 2:45 am. I am sitting at home, wishing I could be snowboarding or something, or learn surfing. One more day till Ceremony. When I came home tonight I found that my father slipped the Classifieds under my door. Could he be hinting at something?

Ahhh schools finally out, but guess what I got fucked on my honors diploma. Well I suppose it's my fault for not going to class. Just one class. Stupid French. Oh well, I'll still graduate in white. But still its like a tiny stab. So I finally payed for my cap and gown today, and in about 7 hours I have to go to a graduation rehearsal for about two hours. fun.

Crystal clear I see the rose is frail. The thorns hide easily in its beauty as I go to grasp it in my hand. My heart is torn beating from my chest. Let me be captivated by your beauty; then let me fall from your grace unto my broken knees. Close my eyes so tightly. The tears are welling up. You aren't worth the waste of the salt or the water. Fuck all your false beauty. It was transparent just like your smile -liar. Your thorns caress my flesh Crimson Drops on a snowy field -liar. I have watched you retrogress. I have seen what you've become-liar. Take your eyes off of me. It's funny how fast blue eyes fade gray -liar. And you are deceit. Watching the sun play in your hair I couldn't really care, care any less about you. Just wither away real beauty is forever.

Was messin' around in PS

Id have to agree with AV and say this weekend was pretty good. Recording was fun, prom was great, and with the leftover cash I bought a bunch of food and sodas and we had a barbecue this evening. This is definetly one of my most memorable weekends, along with the snowboarding weekend, my other passion. I'll go pro soon enough... well, maybe not. Tomorrow everyone come watch us and if things work out Believe The Hype play at the year book signing party, it should be uber fun, you might hear a song you like. We have a new song called..well 24, one day we will have names, and one day we will have an EP, and be signed to a label and have "money out the yin-yangs" but until then its 24. Support these guys. 2 more weeks till summer break, 2 more weeks to pay off my senior fine, 2 more weeks to buy a cap and gown, 2 more weeks to find a job. 2 more weeks to begin living.

Wow last night went better than expected. Pictures were really good $52, Dinner was great $75, and the clue hunt / waterballoon war or "Baghdad" could not have worked out better $10. This was by far my best prom.

So I guess I didn't get the a&f job. They were supposed to call my references then call me by Friday, but they never called either my references or me. Back on the hunt...

The big day.. Schedule as of now is something like this:
05:30 - Families and Group Pictures
06:30 - ???
08:00 - Dance
10:00 - Dinner
11:30 - Baghdad
12:00 - ???

It's the freakin' weekend baby...and I'm about to go record some more drum tracks for our EP, we should have like 8 or 9 songs on it. It is taking for-ev-er to finish, but.. ah well. We are playing at the Yearbook Signing Party this Tuesday at 3:30 ish, along with another local band Believe The Hype, so I hear. Prom is tomorrow and plans are kind of sketchy it should be fun for the most part, as long as the girls aren't all picky and whiney. Then we're supposed to surf all day Sunday, but who knows it that will go through.

New layout...Recording Tomorrow...
Prom on Saturday...Beach on Sunday...
No School Monday...Show on Tuesday.